just a blog.

i am blogging for absolutely no reason.
today has not been amazing but that's okay because it's almost over ;)

sometimes i try to see if i really have a basis to be against certain people or upset with certain people. then they do something that reminds me that i think i really do. gah :( nights like tonight or days like today i wish didn't have to occur.

it's all okay. i can only say oh well and ignore it.

believe it or not i do realize how dry and dull my blogs are but i just am not sure how to word certain things. or how to express what's going on truly in my head.

one of the changes i was going to make this year was to be true to my emotions. to express what i want to and not hold back in certain ways. it may not make sense or sound ridiculous but to me it's sort of a big thing. and if i follow through with that change hah no doubt i will be letting out a lot by the time i go to bed. i'm dumb when i'm tired and flustered. thanks for reading i will stop the pain of such a pointless blog now.

it's a little late to be blogging.

it's almost midnight and i am fully exhausted yet i can't seem to want to go to bed.

i just got off work. after what i thought was going to be a tough night it was even thougher. i am going to be aching tomorrow or today?

my head is spinning. which could either be bad or good my thoughts are all over the place i'm such a nerd.. oh yes.

this is a dumb blog and i'm honestly (a word i seem to be using alot today along with douch) not sure why i'm writing it but i am.

i guess since i really don't have much to say at the moment other than i am completely and fully tired i can't sleep ;) strange i know i'm a tard.

night.

over a thousand no big deal.

i'm selling pure gift certificates again today
even though i tried to get myself geared for it yesterday i really had not.
i didn't seem to ever have more than a moments break from helping someone who wanted mercy money.
so in grand total when skip and i figured it out i sold over a thousand gift certificates yeah people are stupid and truly go at the last minute. today shall be even funner i'm sure of it.

last night however we had the work christmas party at like eleven thirty at night so i wasn't planning to stay too long. i stayed for the gift exchange and while everyone ate.. then kayla decided i had to be her partner for the stupid candy cane hunt (i didn't want to do it because they hid candy canes all over the theatre in ten different houses and i was wearing slippery shoes so it wasn't like i could run.) so anyways we each found a big candy cane which there was one hidden in each house and then three regular ones each and got first place which meant we got ten dollar gift cards to starbucks... good thing we both drink coffee.. not... seeing as be both hate it. but yeah the nerdy twenty one year olds won. oh and for the gift exchange martin gave me twenty dollars to pacsun i feel bad because the limit was ten i love that kid. haha.

oh and i have been texting johnny because i heard he might not come for christmas which would have been disappointing to everyone...anyways he's coming home tonight (: we decided to keep it from minga because she didn't think he would be able to come and has been down about it. so yes johnny will be home tonight.

how it is.

i have three days to do absolutely nothing which is both a good and bad thing.

is bad because i don't like feeling lonely and bored but that is totally something i can handle.

it's good because it is still snowing out and my car has officially decided it hates the snow this year. i totally ran a stop sign going on under 10mph. i don't know what was up with my car but yeah i don't think i'm going to be driving to work this year i think i will be hitching rides. but who knows that might change.

when i go back to work on friday i think i get to sell the glorious mercy movie money tickets for the next week nothing else. people are slightly insane and love to spend hundreds of dollars at a time on five dollar certificates. it will be a joy... i'm sure.

wish list.

random people have been asking me what's on my "wish list" and umm i don't think i have actually had made a wishlist since i was maybe five. anyways i figured it might be fun to make one this year. they things are in no order what so ever.

*grey's anatomy box set (sounds insane expensive but in reality it's only about 70.00 for all five seasons compared to 40.00+ for just one season.)

*last book of the twilight series-breaking dawn or anything twilight.

*the the first taylor swift cd or the newest special edition one.

*anything from fuego haha.

*any of the following posters: the ugly truth, time travelers wife, 10 things i hate about you, or a walk to remember.

*a trip to forks, wa hahaha or queen anne hill to find the grey's intern house bah haha.

*to hear from little miss shantell in someway. (:

*clothes they are always good. ;)

*grey's anatomy game or guitar hero game for DS.

*jason castro cd.

*digital picture frame.

*new converse.

*grey or brown northface denali jacket ebay status.

*anything from the grey's anatomy shop online.

blogs are hard to think of sometimes.

my voice is going away from asking "would you like butter?", "one cheese or two?", "what kind of pop?", "your change is.. enjoy your movie." gah. it shows how much i haven't talked lately if my voice hurts from talking for five hours. pretty pathetic really. ready for day two tomorrow. joy.

sorry.

my blogs.
my texts.
my messages.
my calls.
i am to outward with things.
and maybe not enough with others.
so i'm sorry to anyone i have hurt, frustrated, annoyed, or just straight pissed off.

i am backing away. avoiding. keeping in my garbage.
if you haven't talked to me or backed away because of me i am sorry.