stupid ramblings.

i don't know when things will look up.
when i will be fine. great. amazing.
right now i feel alone.
i shouldn't but for some reason i do.

this month seems like it has literally gone on forever.
too much has happened in to short a time.
something in me decided to just shutdown today..
i feel like i lost the ability to break and let loose everything.
there is no reason why at all.
i know i have people who would listen at least one for sure.


i'm exhausted. not in the need sleep way but in every other way one could be drained.
blah.

i feel horrible not being happy go lucky.
but right now i just don't feel that way.
to physically disappear right now would be dandy. thanks.