a bit of nothing yet something

The past couple days have been difficult. i have been trying to just make it through. it seems petty and pathetic but it has just been hard. i know what i am doing is the best thing but that doesn't make it any easier. going to south dakota breaking away and realizing somethings has made it easy for me to actually go through with it and i am so thankful for that. it seems like because i'm on the right path things have gotten hard. i haven't felt like breaking more than right now.

this song has been the one thing i have been listening to all yesterday and today. it's weird but hearing it over and over only gets better. what it says is exactly what i would say if i could think of the words.

"As I sit here and think

About all that You've done

About how You gave me Your one and only Son

And I'm trying to fathom

All that You are, but so far, Lord

You're so beyond me

I fall down in reverence

And I fall down in fear

And I'm asking You, Lord, won't You please draw near

Won't You open my eyes

So that I can see

The way that You are working in me

All I need is Your love

To come and fill this heart of mine

My heart is a desert that has gone dry

And I need Your love to carry me by, by, by, by, by

To carry me by, by, by, by, by

To carry me by"

this is a ramble but what that i say isn't??