30 days of pictures.

so i wanted to start this 30 day thing awhile ago when my cousin told me about it but i never actually posted the pictures i found so here is the 5 days for the days i've been meaning to do it.

day 6 a picture of someone you would like to trade places with for a day:

taylor swift

day 5 a picture of your favorite memory:

creation 2006.

miss you candice hill and annie martin!

day 3: a picture of the cast from your favorite tv show:

grey's anatomy.

day 2 a picture of the person you have been closest with the longest:

minus family brittany tierney or brit has been one of my best friends since 8th grade and she was one of mare's friends since 5th so she's been around for a long time (:

day one 15 facts:

i want to move to bronx, new york someday.

my nieces and nephews mean everything to me.

my eyes are the deep blah blue like a babies it's rather boring.

i have a big sister, twin, and 2 bruzins.

i'm 22.

i'm overly quiet at first but after that i don't stop talking.

i've always wanted naturally curly hair so i didn't have to do anything to it.

disneyland makes me so happy.

i jump or scream from just about anyone trying to scare me.

losing someone i love scares me more than ever.

my dream is to be a 1st grade teacher.

i tend to talk too fast.

every song i here i try to relate to a movie.

i love the smell of the ocean.

when i laugh to hard i start to sound like "a dying goose"

yes, it's a blog.

i have been so out of it as far as friends go and i'm sorry for that.
without even realizing it i have kinda fluttered away in my own little world.

this christmas could not have been better.. because... i have a new nephew!! i didn't know a baby could bring so much happiness. i love that little baby sooo much and he's not even mine!!

lately i have had a conflict with feeling like going to church is getting me judged and it's frustrating. i am trying to make something of myself. i am not sure how i'm doing but really i promise i am trying. church it's something i'm trying to give another hard go at and so far it's been great. it's those times though when the little comments come out of peoples mouth about how "good" i am. it's not that. i am not trying to be the "better person" or the one that is more holy than the next. i go to church because i feel apart of something. it makes me feel like maybe i do have a purpose.

i guess this is another one of my many rambling blogs.

i'm going mamma mia on you all. haha.

i was just watching mamma mia.. and all though most of that movie is just super funny i feel like a nerd relating semi to it. (:

"sophie: i wanted to get married knowing who i am.
sky: you don't find that from finding your father, you find it by finding yourself."

oh and this part is just really funny!!

"you're not going to tell me you have a twin sister are you."

12 months time.

who can say in the last 12 months they have..

gone to disney, universal, and seaworld with twin.

written a letter to a guy with just a name..

got a call from such said guy..

found out such said guy was their dad.

started dating blank.

met sister and her twins, baby girl, and 14 yr old son.

went from training for manager at the grand old cinema to deciding to quit.

moved to enumclaw, wa with the breece's!

broke up with blank.

found out twister is having a baby.

turned 22.

found out twisters baby will be a boy.

the princess diaries.

yesterday i watched "princess diaries" 1&2.

everything about those movies makes me feel like i have the ability to be a princess too.

i remember when lee took mary and i to see princess diaries 1 and when we were leaving the theatre i thought for sure one day i would have a grandma come and tell me my dad was a prince.

corny right?

i still feel like someone has failed to tell me that i am princess too.

selah community day's oh how i will miss you.

it's may yet again which means time for the..
the hobo feed
the pancake feed
parade
little miss selah
the booths
the rides
the atmosphere
the first works
i will miss..
just all of you.

a night of slightly different sorts.

went to community with bryn tonight and i didn't feel like getting up and leaving like i normally do at church things.

tonight was actually good.
if you know me you know if given a true option i will not be one to take part in communion..
but tonight was different.
i took communion.
not only that but i found myself listening to everything that was being said.

encouragement.
and knowing when your heart is being hardened.
redemption.
the three things that stuck out to me.
tonight was just different.
i actually want to make a change. to be the encourager to my friends/ my family.
i realize i have made a hard shell around my heart tried to not allow much in.
i'm going to try to work on that.
jumping from thought to thought seems to be my deal tonight.
sorry to all those reading but it's what's on my mind.

just to let you all know however i want to try to be the encouraging friend, the one that's there for you no matter what. whether you are having a bad day for no reason or the whole world seems to have fallen on your shoulders.

am i not worth it?

should i still feel hurt, disappointed, upset?
do i have a right to?
i tried best i could to open up.
i know i tend to have a problem with letting people in but i sincerely thought that i was doing an at least ok job.
my trust has now been blown.
i let someone in and it's not enough.
my faith isn't strong enough.
i don't talk enough.
i'm not there enough.
i don't care enough.
:(

just a blog.

i am blogging for absolutely no reason.
today has not been amazing but that's okay because it's almost over ;)

sometimes i try to see if i really have a basis to be against certain people or upset with certain people. then they do something that reminds me that i think i really do. gah :( nights like tonight or days like today i wish didn't have to occur.

it's all okay. i can only say oh well and ignore it.

believe it or not i do realize how dry and dull my blogs are but i just am not sure how to word certain things. or how to express what's going on truly in my head.

one of the changes i was going to make this year was to be true to my emotions. to express what i want to and not hold back in certain ways. it may not make sense or sound ridiculous but to me it's sort of a big thing. and if i follow through with that change hah no doubt i will be letting out a lot by the time i go to bed. i'm dumb when i'm tired and flustered. thanks for reading i will stop the pain of such a pointless blog now.

it's a little late to be blogging.

it's almost midnight and i am fully exhausted yet i can't seem to want to go to bed.

i just got off work. after what i thought was going to be a tough night it was even thougher. i am going to be aching tomorrow or today?

my head is spinning. which could either be bad or good my thoughts are all over the place i'm such a nerd.. oh yes.

this is a dumb blog and i'm honestly (a word i seem to be using alot today along with douch) not sure why i'm writing it but i am.

i guess since i really don't have much to say at the moment other than i am completely and fully tired i can't sleep ;) strange i know i'm a tard.

night.

over a thousand no big deal.

i'm selling pure gift certificates again today
even though i tried to get myself geared for it yesterday i really had not.
i didn't seem to ever have more than a moments break from helping someone who wanted mercy money.
so in grand total when skip and i figured it out i sold over a thousand gift certificates yeah people are stupid and truly go at the last minute. today shall be even funner i'm sure of it.

last night however we had the work christmas party at like eleven thirty at night so i wasn't planning to stay too long. i stayed for the gift exchange and while everyone ate.. then kayla decided i had to be her partner for the stupid candy cane hunt (i didn't want to do it because they hid candy canes all over the theatre in ten different houses and i was wearing slippery shoes so it wasn't like i could run.) so anyways we each found a big candy cane which there was one hidden in each house and then three regular ones each and got first place which meant we got ten dollar gift cards to starbucks... good thing we both drink coffee.. not... seeing as be both hate it. but yeah the nerdy twenty one year olds won. oh and for the gift exchange martin gave me twenty dollars to pacsun i feel bad because the limit was ten i love that kid. haha.

oh and i have been texting johnny because i heard he might not come for christmas which would have been disappointing to everyone...anyways he's coming home tonight (: we decided to keep it from minga because she didn't think he would be able to come and has been down about it. so yes johnny will be home tonight.

how it is.

i have three days to do absolutely nothing which is both a good and bad thing.

is bad because i don't like feeling lonely and bored but that is totally something i can handle.

it's good because it is still snowing out and my car has officially decided it hates the snow this year. i totally ran a stop sign going on under 10mph. i don't know what was up with my car but yeah i don't think i'm going to be driving to work this year i think i will be hitching rides. but who knows that might change.

when i go back to work on friday i think i get to sell the glorious mercy movie money tickets for the next week nothing else. people are slightly insane and love to spend hundreds of dollars at a time on five dollar certificates. it will be a joy... i'm sure.

wish list.

random people have been asking me what's on my "wish list" and umm i don't think i have actually had made a wishlist since i was maybe five. anyways i figured it might be fun to make one this year. they things are in no order what so ever.

*grey's anatomy box set (sounds insane expensive but in reality it's only about 70.00 for all five seasons compared to 40.00+ for just one season.)

*last book of the twilight series-breaking dawn or anything twilight.

*the the first taylor swift cd or the newest special edition one.

*anything from fuego haha.

*any of the following posters: the ugly truth, time travelers wife, 10 things i hate about you, or a walk to remember.

*a trip to forks, wa hahaha or queen anne hill to find the grey's intern house bah haha.

*to hear from little miss shantell in someway. (:

*clothes they are always good. ;)

*grey's anatomy game or guitar hero game for DS.

*jason castro cd.

*digital picture frame.

*new converse.

*grey or brown northface denali jacket ebay status.

*anything from the grey's anatomy shop online.

blogs are hard to think of sometimes.

my voice is going away from asking "would you like butter?", "one cheese or two?", "what kind of pop?", "your change is.. enjoy your movie." gah. it shows how much i haven't talked lately if my voice hurts from talking for five hours. pretty pathetic really. ready for day two tomorrow. joy.

sorry.

my blogs.
my texts.
my messages.
my calls.
i am to outward with things.
and maybe not enough with others.
so i'm sorry to anyone i have hurt, frustrated, annoyed, or just straight pissed off.

i am backing away. avoiding. keeping in my garbage.
if you haven't talked to me or backed away because of me i am sorry.

my life as described by grey's anatomy.

"How do you know when how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love. Too much to ask... And when is it all just too much to bear?"

an iris blog.

lover face herself.

so she did a funraiser thing at school and earned those things..
see becki i am really not short ellie is megaaaaa mega tall ;)
(:

so for the past day i have been helping get iris' room together. she wanted a tinkerbell room.

which is a really good thing because i had a crap load of tinkerbell stuff at my moms from when my mom thought i was obesessed with her.. so i got to give all that to her. and we found a border at wal-mart which set the theme of the room. so here you go.

iris got a horse from one of those spinny things haha the crap you find at yard sales.. and umm my mom is willing to buy.. and umm my tink pillows.

my old trash can.

this lamp was something i got for christmas and thought was sooo amazing her wings are a night light its pretty impressive.

her border.

andddd the finished room!!

sleepover (:

after a simpson sleepover ezzie and taya decided they wanted take pictures.. so now i have some very very random pictures of different objects and such but here are some that turned out cute.

notice iris isn't far off in size from taya even though she is double her age. ;)

miss taya eve.
ezzie.

and iris dawn.

i am never going to be a professional mover. ever.

so i have been helping missy move for the past three days.

and maybe i'm just exhausted or something but these last three days have been super tough.

today was semi okay for the first part and i got most of iris' room painted.

it looks like it completely clashes but it really doesn't when the border goes up... plus she picked the colors.

and my mom and i happened to spot the wienermobile while running to target real quick.

rose davis has a mom.

kinda crazy but she was a super super cute little kid.

she has always even now worn flower hats.... oh man.

sonu ;)

and these are her kids haha. ps she did the crazy make-up.

soo i don't have an old picture of miss except this one.. missy is the blonde one lookin like a punk.